When Life Happens

Over the last couple of years my life has been a constant rollercoaster - from one challenge to the next. Was it fun? Some of it. However, what I know is that they have made me stronger and taught me lessons I could not have learnt in a classroom.

With my desire to become a story of success for myself and family. I am inspired to achieve goals I set.  Education was at the top of 'things to do list' and balancing the demands of family life, businesses and school came with their own challenges.

Having to deal with a teenage son was I think my greatest challenge. When your child looks at you and say 'mommy you were no better than me, when you were my age'. It just hits you, at least that struck me and I had to step back and analyze and go into retrospect.

Rebellion is a sword of contempt for parents which breeds anger and resentment to whomever dishes it. Disrespect on the other hand destroys a good spirit. Together these negative energies took a toll on my sense of serenity and infected all other.

The anger created an imbalance in family, business, study and even to an extent my social life. Angry because I was  trying to control an uncontrollable part of me who is unable to control  their own self.

When I look back at all the things I did, I now feel they were done to compensate or distract me from  my sordid realities.  Although, intentionally done; I believe there were underlying connotations known only to me in the subconscious.